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March 28, 2006
Trader Joe's
Whenever i'm stressed and tense, which is fairly often, i find that a visit to trader joe's really helps me relax. Perhaps its the freshly cut flowers on the way in, or the free samples of quick and delicious dinner ideas. Whatever the cause, i walk in there and feel... normal. I have noticed, however, that soccer moms are ruthless. I work from home now and am completely in control of my schedule. So i often make my journey over there right at the peak of the mothers work day. With the kids at school, husband at work, and a noon hair appointment, these women are on a mission at the grocery store. And if you think you're gonna snag that parking spot, think again buster. Last can of minestrone? It's hers', don't even try. This really doesn't bother me, i'm in no hurry. Ok, that's why i feel so relaxed there... it's the only place i regularly go that I am not rushing to and from.
Posted by chriscoxmusic at 04:43 PM | Comments (0)
March 21, 2006
The Viceral
My apartment freaking reeks. My roommates and I cannot find the source. We've throughly* cleaned the kitchen and still we sit in stench. It's raining and I love it.
As i sit here watching conan i'm reminded of a concept. Everyone is somebody's bitch. Conan is at the whim of America. As am I. But this very idea, which i think we all agree with to some extent, especially if we've ever used the term "the man", is what originally brought to my attention my need for salvation in the first place. We need hope. This is the reason newscasters use the tone of voice that they do. This is the reason companies advertise their products. It's really hard for me to be a christian in america. Because i so disagree with most of what the church says. I am so terrified of someone associating me with the ignorant and confidently arrogant attitide that pervades so much of the church. And here i am again, realizing that the reason i don't want to be associated with them is because i want to be loved by humans, because on some level i believe that the adoration of man will fulfill me. And therein lies my need for salvation. It's everywhere, isn't it.
*not throughly
Posted by chriscoxmusic at 12:31 AM | Comments (0)
March 15, 2006
Something great
Something great happened this morning. I go to Diedrichs Coffee just about every day. Their wireless internet is free and the vibe is always good. So this morning i'm sitting there at a large table, one at which 8 people can sit, and next to me sits this man who looks to be homeless. It was weird because he had a laptop with him. I guess he could've not been homeless but by every indication i observed he was. Smell and all. There we sat, with him making awkward conversation with me about "the market" and me not really engaging. After about half an hour he, having noticed my cell phone sitting on the table, asked if he might be able to use it. The only objection i had, honestly, came from the state of his ears and their accompanying hair. But, i told him he could, and he proceeded to make a call. After a few seconds of him holding the phone up to his aforementioned ear he hung it up and said "hey buddy, they turned your phone off 'cause you haven't paid your bill". "Shit", I thought. But then the awesome part happened. He just sat there and looked at me. With a look that said "how could you let this happen? You really let me down here, buddy". I laughed out loud. "I'm pretty sure you're freaking homeless", i said to him, continuing our conversation using the idiom of the eye. I called verizon and spoke with some angry bro and paid a bit of money and they turned it back on. But the reason i'm writing this is because the humor in the situation allowed me to see how unimportant monetary things are. I'm completely broke. Who freaking cares?! "Sure", you're thinking, "you say this now, but if you had a hit and came into some money your tune might change." If this ever happens ("this" is subject to debate) you, yes you, have full written permission to kick me where ever you like.
Posted by chriscoxmusic at 10:17 AM | Comments (0)
March 13, 2006
Allright
I've found something. Something the likes of which the western world has never seen. Something that has changed my life. Let me start off by saying: Charles Shaw and I have had a complex and often misunderstood relationship. True, I did explore other avenues, galavanting about with Kendall Jackson and someone i'll just call "leaf". But in the end Joni Mitchell was right. You don't know what you've got till its gone. Charles was there, waiting for me with arms wide open. So the other day i gathered $4 and headed off to trader joes to get down. On my way to visit the aforementioned Charles something caught my eye. Something i'd never seen before, but knew like an old friend. There on the bottom shelf was a stately box of breakfast cereal. I was drawn to it like moth to flame. It's name: Cherry Almond Cluster. "MILK! MILK! I need some freaking milk!" thought I. Nonfat? 2%? I went with the 2%. Friends this is no ordinary breakfast experience. This is the new reason i get up in the morning. Go. Run, don't walk. Purchase and revel in a meal so satisfying you'll want to write General Mills and Kellogg strongly worded letters. Oh, Cherry Almond Cluster, don't ever leave me.
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March 03, 2006
Put your head down
That's where I'm at. It's just getting up every morning and doing anything I can to promote myself. Well, my music, that is. It's strange to spend all day telling everyone how wonderful you are. Because I know the truth. Things are going well, though. The past couple shows have had a sort of schizophrenic-ness to them. Small packed rooms one night and empty warehouses the next. The thing I've realized is that we live life moment to moment weather or not we realize it. We are in the moment, it's just a matter of becoming aware of how not-in-control we really are. And so the best thing to do, for me, is to revel in all the ambiguity the universe and theology offer me and have a good time. There is something cathartic about music. I know you knew that already. It's just what i have inside me. Weather or not people will like it is a different story. Playing and singing are what I have to do. Because they reveal the mystery of life we all live in. Art is the most illogical thing. But it's so beautiful because one painting or melody can make us feel connected as humans, with it's expressing in one artistic gesture an encyclopedia's worth of commentary on humanity and life. We're all in this together, period. And so now i'll post this, and re-read it, and wonder if i should take it down. whatever.
Posted by chriscoxmusic at 07:59 AM | Comments (1)